Punch-drunk on love

Today started off quite well. I woke up at 4am and played RF Online till 6am. I slept again then awoke at 12pm to play the game again. So many things to do so little time. Hell. I'm bored. I've been in a slump lately. I don't know if I can attribute it to my "experience" but I won't blame that. I've been feeling bad about myself. Often daydreaming just to pass my time. I wish I had somewhere to go to. Too bad all my friends and blockmates are busy these days.. or are they? The holidays always reminded me of some of my childhood memories. I don't why I get nostalgic during this time.. must be the Christmas Ham. Heh. Oh Yeah, I've been eating alot these past few days. It wouldn't surprise me if I gained a couple of pounds. Why are women so conscious about their weight? All of a sudden I'm surrounded by anorexic girls.

Those sentences where things not anyhow related to each other. Reminds me of the condition our Psychology Prof told us about. Can't remember what its called. I'm completely spaced-out

My friend showed me a couple of blogs he likes, the little snoop ( just kidding haha :D ), they're all mushy and dramatic. They often contain poems of love and adoration, heartbreak and sorrow, pain and suffering. It suddenly reminded me of a song. I think he can relate to the first few lines. Ehem. "My loneliness is killing me and I, I must confess I still believe ( still believe ) that when I'm with you I lose my mind. Give me a sign.. Hit Me Baby One More Time."
Yeah I think that'll sum up the loneliness you feel. Hahaha. Just Kidding.

This is an old one. Can't even remember when I wrote it but its within 4months ago to now.

The music cools down my anguished heart

the rhythm mellows my burning soul

As I stare blankly, torn apart

I ponder deeply why didn't it grow

The undaunted gaze, the unwavering smile

the cirque I live and call my life

As the truth and fantasies now collide

All I have is you on my mind

Doesn't make sense right? Only I hold the key to understanding what it really means.

A friend told me that I will eventually forget about her but the thing is, I don't want to.... She's worth the wait. What if she goes with the other guy? Then let that be my end, I'll never love another the way I love her.

You are one of the few things worth remembering and since its all true how could anyone mean more to me than you.