Depression

It's been two to three days since I got my grades for this term. I fucked up Comath2. Just because of one quiz I now have to repeat the whole subject again. Depresses me alot since it's my first time to repeat a subject. I have to endure 3 months of the same thing plus I'm gonna be delayed for its prerequisites. I haven't told my mom about it yet. I'll surely have more than my fair share of sermons. I feel bad too. What job will I be able to get in the future? Sigh, 2 more years then I'll be working. I miss highschool.

The silence of the bedroom is deafening. The hush rings in my head making it hurt more and more.

I sorely miss her. It has been 3 days since she went back to her hometown. Back to the one she actually likes. I can't help but feel jealous though I know I have no right since we're not a couple. Just friends, plain and simple, and I think that's all she wants from me. I've been asking advice from total strangers and a friend regarding this matter. They say I should wait and see while one told me that she could be selecting from us which why I was not rejected outright. Ahm, wait I'll paste it here:

She might be choosing between you and someone else. Or she may also be waiting for someone she really likes to do something. It's like this: there might be some other guys courting her and she's undecided if she should choose you or some other. But she definitely likes you too otherwise she would say "Let's just be friends" or something to that effect.On the other hand, (which is more likely, kaya ang tagal tagal ng sagot nia) there might be someone she really likes also who isn't doing anything. Maybe she's waiting for that person to make a move, that's why she's telling you she's not sure yet. She's going to wait for a little and maybe hint at that person a little and if still nothing happens, then she's gna give up on him.. It sounds bad but this really really happens. Girls select, too..

Hopefully the tribe will speak soon and I don't get voted out.