Paper Kittens

I never realized how much I have missed hanging out with friends.

Early morning talks in the middle of a park with only the mating calls of cats as our background. Hahaha.

I need this time. I may be over thinking things but I prefer they fade as fast as they set in.

It's taking a toll on me.

Seclusion

Grabbed this from a friend. I can actually relate right now.

Affirmation

lonely isn't just wanting to be with someone just because you're alone and have nothing to do.
lonely is when you want so much to be with someone, that it actually hurts when you can't be with him/her. it's like there is a void inside of you that can only be filled by that one person but you can't be with that person, so the void just sucks you in.
It doesn't matter if your busy with work, playing or just lying in bed sometimes it'll just hurt, and you can't do anything about it so you just continue with what your doing pretending you don't feel the pain. after a while, you start to feel nothing because you got used to the pain. you are numb to the pain, but you also end up being numb to everything else.
you feel useless, insignificant and weak because you can't do anything.
i guess when you think about it, we all just need affirmation. we just want to hear that we are not useless, not insignificant and not weak. we just want to hear that we are their world and that they want to be our world too.

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

Birthdays

Your Birthdate: March 1

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Eternity

The song suddenly played and I was shocked at how I could really relate to it especially in my current circumstance.

A New Tattoo by Urban Dub

Great moments they pass by
If youre careless
Desperately trying to speak the words
Ive been wanting to say for a long time.
Tongue tied, every time I try to talk to you
In time, Ill find the right line.

Caught a glimpse of you
I tremble every time you walk by
Hopelessly trying to find a way
To be near you, to get near you.
In my mind, plays thoughts of you all the
time
Ill find the right line

Ill bleed for you
Like a new tattoo in my heart
Youll stay permanent

Am I too late now?
Will I find a way to get to you somehow?
Shes breaking me down again
Shes breaking me down


I have no idea how to approach this girl I like. I'm always awestruck and dumbfounded whenever I see her along the halls or online. I always want to talk to her yet I'm always at a loss of words. This is one girl I don't want to risk. If being more than friends means an awkward relationship in case it goes sour, then I'll wholeheartedly choose being just a friend so that time to time I could get a glimpse of her smiling at me and not an unfriendly face looking me. This is one girl I can't bear to lose. This is one girl I want to be forever with.

Air Castles

Last night we were together and I held your hand.
We seemed to talk forever with you by my side.
I felt utter joy and happiness... completeness in a way.
I wonder, will this be always just a dream?

I dreamt of her last night. It was euphoric. I took her hand and led her to a couch to seat beside. All that time she didn't even budge as if there was something unnatural with what I did. She acted as if it was the norm.

I really wish it would be... I really wish one day it would. I don't care when that'll be I will wait as long as it takes. For me, she's worth any length of time and any amount of pain, she makes me happy, she keeps me sane, she keeps me grounded, she keeps me on my toes, she keeps me thinking and wondering everyday. I could go on and on to what she makes me feel and do so I'll just say that she makes me feel alive. Yeah, I think that would sum it up quite nicely.

Mush

Distant

her eyes speaks volumes, they pierce through all logic.
one cannot simply quantify her, she.. she's everlasting
time cannot bind her beauty and will never diminish her appeal
she's a goddess, one so near yet so far away
mortal men clamor to be in her presence
but never gets too near for they are afraid
afraid that they might taint her and quell her beauty
so I look and watch from afar
hoping that one day this goddess will come to me

Dedicated to Leah Dizon.



Oh cmon how can one not simply fall for those eyes.

*Leah Dizon fan mode on*

Overlapping Realms

I got this topic/idea from here.
Hmm. GM T's Group Writing Project as well.

Online Games & MMORPGs: Is it a mirror of the real world?

Online Games & MMORPGs are part of the filipino culture now. They're always some reference by teenagers nowadays to something they play online. In fact to some, these realms are not merely games but their lives. Addicts. They play countless hours to gain wealth, fame and power in a digital world. Sakin mababaw yan but I can't deny the fact that indeed some of these games are really addicting but for me its not really because of the game but because of the community. Cmon, the game can only take you so far. You will have to interact with other people whether you like it or not. May it be the helpful person that you find pleasant or the brat that curses in each line he types. Human interaction talaga nagpapatagal sayo sa isang laro. Mga tao na nakilala mo ang nagbibigay ng diperensya kung ito'y laro lang o buhay mo na.

Is it a mirror? No matter how simple, few or varied the community is, certain elements of upbringing will certainly transcend realities. Even if you say you roleplay, you can't really supress who you are. There will be always qualities of yourself present on your online avatar and with this social norms and paradigms will be present as well. Crab mentality. Check. Usage of connections to gain advantage. Check. Usage of money to gain advantage. Check. And that's just what's blatantly out there. Wala pa yung simple interpersonal things that can really reflect on who or what you are as a person. Anything you do that will make you interact with other people will always somehow mirror you. What more in a realm where you basically "live" in it?